David: Cathy went to 'Splash' today with Marie. 'Splash' is a waterpark on the north side of Brisbane. Last time we went there, we followed Marie and Steven. We were almost there when Marie's car broke down in the middle lane of a busy road. Cathy and I stopped somewhere in the middle of the traffic that had been blocked by Marie's car, and I walked up and helped Steven push her car off the road. It ended up that both of them had to wait for the RACQ to turn up, and then for the car to be towed. By the time they met us at 'Splash', Cathy and I had spent most of the day swimming and going on the slides, and the day was over. Hopefully Marie has a better time today.
As for me, I've been stuck inside with the budgies all day trying to get something meaningful down for a paper that has to be finished for my previous job. They are going to submit the paper to a large international management conference, and it needs to be ready by early January. We've written about 9,000 words so far, so we can't really afford to write much more, but I don't feel good about it. It is a reflective paper about the experience of researching a particular topic. It covers ten years, and aside from one project that I've worked on extensively and another that was mostly my own, I was not part of many of the projects being discussed. This makes it difficult to write reflectively about them, but I that isn't my main problem. The main issue is that I don't feel the different sections are addressing my idea of the main topic of the paper. My original conceptualisation of what we were going to do was that we would discuss problems of accessing the organisations, the research (or lack thereof) that resulted, and then the ways in which the organisations responded (including not responding). The problem is that many of the experiences that have been written about by the other authors don't really fit with this conceptualisation, so I'm having some problems turning the paper into a piece of writing with an obvious point. I'm reading it, and re-reading it. The paper is full of interesting topics, but it has come together in a way that doesn't seem to me to be consistently arguing main themes. Because of this, I have wasted a lot of my own time.
I have a terrible habit of not charging employers for time that I don't consider productive, and this means that I won't charge the uni for much of the time that I have spent on this project today. I don't feel right about charging them for time when I have just been looking through the text trying to find a coherent theme. I only charge for time that I spend writing once I have found that theme. What this means is that, on occasions, I will work on a project for hours and only charge them for a couple. I know that I should perhaps be more mercenary about it, and that the time that I am spending reading through other people's writing is still 'work time', but I still tend to have the 'piece rate' mentality of my former manual labour days.
From about 20 to 24 years old, I used to work as a machinist at a newspaper in the little country town where I lived. The machine that I worked on made the types of magazines that you find in newsagents. There was always the expectation that I would have the machine running at a certain pace, and that a certain number of magazines would be made each hour (usually in the thousands). I think that this mentality has carried into my current work, where I feel that I have to get a certain 'amount' of work done within a certain amount of time (e.g., X number of pages written). I realise that I need to work on recognising the value of intellectual capital as well as the products that are produced by my hands: the number of pages I write.
My new job is a totally different environment though, with different expectations. I think that part of the problem I am having with this paper is that I am eager to engage my energies in my new job, and am not very enthused about still doing work from my previous position. The thing is, I don't really need the money from the work for the uni now that I have this new position, but I want to help out the people there who have been so good to me. This paper is important for them, and I don't want to let them down. I will come back to the paper early in the morning with a fresh mind and see what I can do with it then. I'll spend the rest of today reading some of documentation I have been given for my new job.
Here is the next entry in the UK Journal:
Friday 11/06/93 Near Sherwood Forest/Nottingham. 9:04 pm.
We had a hard time finding a camping site last night. When we eventually did, it was late and dark so we slept in the car. It has rained heavily for the past two or three days, on and off though. We seem to be having a spell from it at the moment.
Yesterday we visited mostly very old buildings as we went through the Lake District, on the most frightening narrow roads you can imagine. The area was very mountainous and a lot of the time you have a stone wall right on the edge of the road. There is just enough room for two cars to fit through with an ant's dicks distance between them. Sometimes one car will have to reverse back to a slightly wider spot to allow the other to fit through, and to top it off the roads are extremely windy. As if this isn't bad enough, English drivers drive at insane speeds. I'm starting to get very irritated with the drivers over here actually. It seems that 30 MPH means 50 MPH, 40 means 60, and 60 MPH which is the highway limit means "Let's see what this baby will do!". This is not just on freeways but also on every road, even in the rain.
Anyhow enough bitchin'; I'll get back to the story.
We visited a stone circle called Castlerigg Stone Circle. Most of the stone circles (and there are heaps in the UK) were built between 2500 BC and 1300 BC. This one was most memorable because of the mountain backdrop. Hardnott Roman Fort was perched on the side of one of the highest mountains in this area. It was built in the reign of Hadrian about 118-138 AD.
We decided to follow a small stream up the side of one of the higher mountains. We found the source coming out of the peat moss about one third of the way up, and Monique stopped there while I went to the top.
The whole side of the mountain is rock and fields of spongy peat moss. The sheep are more abundant near the top than anywhere else. The view from the top was of ranges of green, rocky mountains in all directions. Near the top the atmosphere became considerably warmer and my ears popped twice on the walk down, so it must have been reasonably high. Got a photo from the top through the mist.
We visited Ravenglass Roman Bath House (130 AD). This was not much more than a group of ruined buildings, so we went to look for a caravan park. As I said before we had quite a bit of trouble finding one. On the way we stopped at a parking lot and fed a couple of ducks that ate out of our hands.
Now on to today before I run out of sun.
We visited Conisborough Castle (1179 AD) and Roche Abbey (1147 AD through to 1537 AD) but they were mostly ruins, though the large white circular keep of the castle was able to be climbed to the top and was quite interesting.
The best stop of the day was at Bolsover Castle. Two of the buildings were hollow shells but what they called the small castle, that was within it's own walls with it's own garden, was almost in perfect condition. The interior was in the style of a manor with the most beautiful paint work I have seen. The ceilings and walls of the second story (three stories and a basement kitchen) were painted with scenes ranging from 'The Labors of Hercules' to varied religious paintings, Christian and ancient Greek. A wonderful place.
We are in a caravan park next to a pond full of ducks, geese, giant fish and a fighting swan; which, after chasing away the geese, had a bit of a fight with me. He ended up giving up. Ah victory!
10:04 pm
David: I had a good day at working at my new job. I didn't get to do much for my first day, but I learned quite a bit about the culture and the way things are done. I'd write more, but it is getting late and I don't want to be tired for work tomorrow.
Tuesday 25/05/93 Chingford , London , England. 8:47 pm.